is it just me?

have you ever felt like a thousand pounds have just been dropped on your shoulders? and feeling completely and 100% empty, and scared,sad all at the same time? i thought everything was fine, atleast thats what you told me! were you really telling me the truth? or was it all just a big lie? i sit in silence, praying that all wil be fine, but i cry waiting for the time to pass, is this really reality, am i really awake or is it all just a dream? When the rain is falling, my heart is pounding, just want to cry, dont want to die! The pains still here screaming in my ear! Is it too late? Ill just have to wait. so when im sad or angry i write down poems describing my feelings or maybe illl write a song, it makes life so much easier, rather then getting angry with God, or my family, or even my friends, i write my feelings down in a notebook and i give all of my trials to God, becasue "with him all things are possible" when i wrote these i wasnt talking about anyone, but when i do write poems, or sayings i write alot of the times a perspective of myself, and thinking why did i do this, or that, or how can i make i difference in the world? well even though today wasnt the best day! there is alwasy Tommorow.

horror?, cries?, sadness?, ok whats the worst that could happen????

my dear friend Linnea came over this weekend just for fun, and then she got very sick! :( I WAS TRYING TO GET HER TO CALL HER PARENTS, but she said she would be fine, so im like okay thats fine, (she had back problems, stomach problems ect.) so on saturday we went to a performance for LOVEINACTION our drama team, and as we were out she got sick, so then we took her to the docter and it turns out everything is ok, the only thing is its a muscle spazm. its from not drinking enough milk. so my dear friends this is a lesson telling you to drink all of your MILK. hahahaha love you guys. ~ki

JULY...

This week has been very difficult for me.. because on Tuesday of this week one of my good friends July committed suicide, she was only 16 she wanted to be a psycologist, she wanted to help poeple. God had much greater plans for her than for her to commit suicide. but at the same time i dont completely blame her. you see over the past couple of weeks she was having people tell her LIES for example: they told her " you should go to hell you dont deserve heaven, i bet God would take one look at you and reject you" or " go kill yourself your completely pointless in this world", " whats the point of living, your just screwing yourself up". if i was her i would have probally wanted the same thign. execept for theres one thing thats different about me and her. im a believer and unfortantly she wasnt. i shared Christ with but she just wasnt ready. thats what breaks my heart the most, i know that she wasnt a believer. but going back to waht i was saying, She also had some family difficulties, so she just couldnt take any more, so she went to her room and hung herself. i wish i could have been there to stop her. i texted her before she did it too. but unfortiantly i wasnt there to stop her. and i also know its not my fault on what happenned. a memory i have of her is that she always had to have her SOCKS perfect; perfect lenght, matching, and couldnt be on wrong. one day me and a few other people decided to where our socks completly wrong, just to see her reaction and when she saw us she went to her locker and grabbed a bag of unused socks and made us all wear them. it was pretty funny. she will be missed and loved greatly.. we love you JULY.. the picture is an asl (american sign language) she was in my class, but it means "i love you

~kierra

back....

what can i say? i was not using a comp. for 2 months... or my phone.. but im glad to be back.:) its so funny sometimes thinking about the things that go into your head.. i mean like super random questions or thoughts.. it just makes you laugh.. like sometimes ill find myself laughing out loud during class and then people stare at you funny. and im like sorry. i had a funny thought.. for ex."Why does a GF work years to change a BF's habits and then complain that he's not the man she engaged? or is betting that in prison everyones relationship status is "its complicated, Whoever says Paper beats Rock is not very bright. Next time I see someone say that I will throw a rock at them while they hold up a sheet of paper, and lastly asked a stupid question on yahoo answers. see what i mean how much of a blonde can i get.. lol

unsure.. what to say

today. i had a bunch of freinds over. and it was very fun. except for when i slipped down the stairs and broke moms picture frame.. so what do i do.. i think quickly run into my room grab the picture frame that is very simular and exchange it.. she doesnt expect a thing.. o did i say today i emant a while a go lol ok so every day if you havnt noticed ive been writing something about my family. so now its my mothers turn.. i mean lets see here whats not to love about her. shes beautiful, kind, caring, fun, exciting, crazy, and at times wierd. but she would never let us go hungry. and she always puts. ohters before herself. i lvoe my mother very much.... :)


WITH GOD ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE

my sister

This morning i was thinking about my sister Kelly, im not sure why but i was, and then i got to thinking of all of her awesome talents for example: shes an awesome leader, she can sing, play Guitar, play Bass. she can play drums, dance, act. you name it she can probally do it. o did i mention shes beautiful as well. my sister is always there for me. i can pretty much tell her anything and everything. and know that its going to be safe in her heart. she wouldnt tell a friend about that stuff. i love my sister so very much. even if we do argue from time to time.heres one example of my amazing beautiful sister. whats your siblings like?

fridays.. are the best....

i love fridays. dont you? i mean whats not to love. school is out for the week, no more time for you to get your homework done. but thats not the main reason i love fridays. you see every friday i get to hang out with my dad. my Dad is so special to me. hes always there for me, i can always talk to him. he may not be perfect but hes to the best of his ability.. so every friday i used to go with him to friday night rocks in minneapolis. where i would hang out with children and help them get to know God. as there personal Lord and Savior. and let me tell you its nerve wracking, but i always have my 2 dads with me.. (God, and my dad on earth). and now my dad and i go about once a month.. but he still finds time for me on his hectic schedule.. i look up to my dad. hes my hero. i mean whats not to love, i can tell him alot and he always understands me.. whos your hero?

jeremiah 29:11

"For i know the plan i have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."