fun fun fun in the sun

so my mother just got back from her trip and she had an amazing time! and now im listening to music. outside with my family, and on my comp. what could be better?

thoughts, thinking, over loaded

The rain is pooring, my heart is pounding, the storm is racing, my head is screaming, Is it just me? Or is it the world? My heart is breaking to pieces. Cant u see that? I put a mask on... Not to hide from myself, but from the world! How can someting so small get so big? Find your hope in christ.! I think im drowning, i want to break the spell that u created, your something beautiful, a contradiction, i wanna play the game, i want the friction, you will be the death of me. Bury it, i wont let u bury it, i wont let u smother it, and i wont let u murder it. Time is running out. And im just screaming out. I wanted freedom bound and restricted i tried to give u up but im addicted. You will squeeze the life out of me. Time is running out. why does the same thing always seem to be coming back? i feel like im the only one struggling, but i know there are so many others going through some of the same things i go through! well lets see; feeling hopeless, wondering what is Gods plan for ME, wanting to do more in the world but i know im not SUPERMAN. God what do YOU for me? what is YOUR plans for me? Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Why this verse?
This verse has special meaning to me it has a powerful message and was intrumental im my decission on excepting christ into my life. For many years, I took the words in the verse at face value. It wasn't until I heard someone questioning the meaning that I decided to do some research of my own. I found quite a few blogs and sermons[1][2][3][4] (and even an article on eHow[5]) about the context and true meaning of the verse.
It is important, imperative actually, that we understand the context of passages from the Bible. In studying the context of Jeremiah 29:11, I feel I have a better understanding of the true meaning. Even if you omit the contextualized words "plans to prosper you and not to harm you", I believe this verse still has a very powerful message: God knows us personally, has a plan for us, and allows us to find hope in Him. im leaving you with just a few words; find hope in christ he will help you through your trials! God bless

family, friends,happiness,peace!

how does it work? i have such a good family, and my friends are all very kind, when im feeling sad, all i have to do is talk to them and i know everything will be ok! for example; my awesome and amazing brother Ryan, i was on the phone wiht him, and i was feeling kinda down, and as soon as i was done talking to him, everything seemed to be going great, my brohter is always there for me, and i can count on him for anything, hes a great person, and i know i can look up to him, its funny becasue when i was yougner i wanted to be exactly like him, go to the same school as him, be as funny as him, be smart like him, and when i did somehting wrong i would get so mad, but then after a while i relized that everone is there own person. and that God made you perfect just the way you are. thank you so much ryan for being my brother! your an amazing brother and i admire you so much... i love you :)

is it just me?

have you ever felt like a thousand pounds have just been dropped on your shoulders? and feeling completely and 100% empty, and scared,sad all at the same time? i thought everything was fine, atleast thats what you told me! were you really telling me the truth? or was it all just a big lie? i sit in silence, praying that all wil be fine, but i cry waiting for the time to pass, is this really reality, am i really awake or is it all just a dream? When the rain is falling, my heart is pounding, just want to cry, dont want to die! The pains still here screaming in my ear! Is it too late? Ill just have to wait. so when im sad or angry i write down poems describing my feelings or maybe illl write a song, it makes life so much easier, rather then getting angry with God, or my family, or even my friends, i write my feelings down in a notebook and i give all of my trials to God, becasue "with him all things are possible" when i wrote these i wasnt talking about anyone, but when i do write poems, or sayings i write alot of the times a perspective of myself, and thinking why did i do this, or that, or how can i make i difference in the world? well even though today wasnt the best day! there is alwasy Tommorow.

horror?, cries?, sadness?, ok whats the worst that could happen????

my dear friend Linnea came over this weekend just for fun, and then she got very sick! :( I WAS TRYING TO GET HER TO CALL HER PARENTS, but she said she would be fine, so im like okay thats fine, (she had back problems, stomach problems ect.) so on saturday we went to a performance for LOVEINACTION our drama team, and as we were out she got sick, so then we took her to the docter and it turns out everything is ok, the only thing is its a muscle spazm. its from not drinking enough milk. so my dear friends this is a lesson telling you to drink all of your MILK. hahahaha love you guys. ~ki

JULY...

This week has been very difficult for me.. because on Tuesday of this week one of my good friends July committed suicide, she was only 16 she wanted to be a psycologist, she wanted to help poeple. God had much greater plans for her than for her to commit suicide. but at the same time i dont completely blame her. you see over the past couple of weeks she was having people tell her LIES for example: they told her " you should go to hell you dont deserve heaven, i bet God would take one look at you and reject you" or " go kill yourself your completely pointless in this world", " whats the point of living, your just screwing yourself up". if i was her i would have probally wanted the same thign. execept for theres one thing thats different about me and her. im a believer and unfortantly she wasnt. i shared Christ with but she just wasnt ready. thats what breaks my heart the most, i know that she wasnt a believer. but going back to waht i was saying, She also had some family difficulties, so she just couldnt take any more, so she went to her room and hung herself. i wish i could have been there to stop her. i texted her before she did it too. but unfortiantly i wasnt there to stop her. and i also know its not my fault on what happenned. a memory i have of her is that she always had to have her SOCKS perfect; perfect lenght, matching, and couldnt be on wrong. one day me and a few other people decided to where our socks completly wrong, just to see her reaction and when she saw us she went to her locker and grabbed a bag of unused socks and made us all wear them. it was pretty funny. she will be missed and loved greatly.. we love you JULY.. the picture is an asl (american sign language) she was in my class, but it means "i love you

~kierra

back....

what can i say? i was not using a comp. for 2 months... or my phone.. but im glad to be back.:) its so funny sometimes thinking about the things that go into your head.. i mean like super random questions or thoughts.. it just makes you laugh.. like sometimes ill find myself laughing out loud during class and then people stare at you funny. and im like sorry. i had a funny thought.. for ex."Why does a GF work years to change a BF's habits and then complain that he's not the man she engaged? or is betting that in prison everyones relationship status is "its complicated, Whoever says Paper beats Rock is not very bright. Next time I see someone say that I will throw a rock at them while they hold up a sheet of paper, and lastly asked a stupid question on yahoo answers. see what i mean how much of a blonde can i get.. lol