JULY...

This week has been very difficult for me.. because on Tuesday of this week one of my good friends July committed suicide, she was only 16 she wanted to be a psycologist, she wanted to help poeple. God had much greater plans for her than for her to commit suicide. but at the same time i dont completely blame her. you see over the past couple of weeks she was having people tell her LIES for example: they told her " you should go to hell you dont deserve heaven, i bet God would take one look at you and reject you" or " go kill yourself your completely pointless in this world", " whats the point of living, your just screwing yourself up". if i was her i would have probally wanted the same thign. execept for theres one thing thats different about me and her. im a believer and unfortantly she wasnt. i shared Christ with but she just wasnt ready. thats what breaks my heart the most, i know that she wasnt a believer. but going back to waht i was saying, She also had some family difficulties, so she just couldnt take any more, so she went to her room and hung herself. i wish i could have been there to stop her. i texted her before she did it too. but unfortiantly i wasnt there to stop her. and i also know its not my fault on what happenned. a memory i have of her is that she always had to have her SOCKS perfect; perfect lenght, matching, and couldnt be on wrong. one day me and a few other people decided to where our socks completly wrong, just to see her reaction and when she saw us she went to her locker and grabbed a bag of unused socks and made us all wear them. it was pretty funny. she will be missed and loved greatly.. we love you JULY.. the picture is an asl (american sign language) she was in my class, but it means "i love you

~kierra