is it just me?

have you ever felt like a thousand pounds have just been dropped on your shoulders? and feeling completely and 100% empty, and scared,sad all at the same time? i thought everything was fine, atleast thats what you told me! were you really telling me the truth? or was it all just a big lie? i sit in silence, praying that all wil be fine, but i cry waiting for the time to pass, is this really reality, am i really awake or is it all just a dream? When the rain is falling, my heart is pounding, just want to cry, dont want to die! The pains still here screaming in my ear! Is it too late? Ill just have to wait. so when im sad or angry i write down poems describing my feelings or maybe illl write a song, it makes life so much easier, rather then getting angry with God, or my family, or even my friends, i write my feelings down in a notebook and i give all of my trials to God, becasue "with him all things are possible" when i wrote these i wasnt talking about anyone, but when i do write poems, or sayings i write alot of the times a perspective of myself, and thinking why did i do this, or that, or how can i make i difference in the world? well even though today wasnt the best day! there is alwasy Tommorow.